The Jokes of Love

Most of my friends are married now and may are having their first children and while I am totally pleased for them, I wonder about me.
Maybe I should be more bothered that in the eyes of the world I am getting woefully left behind but I find that mostly I'm not that bothered. BUT I worry that one day I will regret not doing more to advance my own progress - that I will be an old maid sat home alone with my cats, regret loves lost and children unborn.
They all seem to have found their other halves while dont even know what I want in my man! lol More than finding the man I find what I most envy them is the babies. I want a baby. I always have loved and adored children and I find that I am quite good with them. I love the feel of a baby in my arms, the weight and warmth of them, the small sighs and moans they make, the cute faces, their chipmunk cheeks, the smallness - its all just so....... cute!

I am afraid I am doomed to be attracted to the kind of man that will never be attracted to me and would never consider me their life partner. I find that the type of men I like think of me as a good friend or at least a friend. And maybe just maybe I may like a guy who will never think of me as anything more than that.

Further, most men in this country dont even like the way I look - I shall never ever be skinny enough or tall enough or pretty enough. I am just me- I was not made to be slim and svelte. Can any man even look past that to see ME? So far the evidence points to the "NO" side.

More and more I am starting to think on these topics -not so much, I think, because they are in MY mind bt because people always ask and they NEVER let you forget!