scrambled eggs for brains

I am 26 and life is totally complicated. I always thought I'd know exactly what I wanted to do and who I am and what I wanted to do by now but I totally don't!! I see my friends and family (as well as people in general) getting on with life and decisions and I want to be like them but just can't seem to manage it.
What is wrong with me??

Our little nuclear family just a long overdue, but very intense and emotional, family discussion. A lot was discussed however I just don't know how much was resolved.

I have a lot of faults. I need to adress them. Most of all I need to find a direction in life and STICK to it. I need to have a goal and work flat out to achieve it. Blood, sweat and tears are required.

Through no one elses fault but myy own I have wasted a LOT of my life. Bad decisions, laziness, depression, lack of motivation, illness - the excuses are many. None of them help.

The past is over and I am going to do my best not to think about it too much. I need, I think, to look forward and plan. Plan what to do, what will be best and what will work out.

1) I need to lose weight - this is imperitive for my health and my peace of mind. I want to be fit and healthy and I want to be able to look good. I want to be able to go shopping and find funky clothes that fit in reasonable sizes.

2) I need to stop being lazy and stop making excuses.

3) I need to be proactive and actively search for ways to improve my life.

4) I need to decide what to do and how best to do it. Goals. I need a direction.

5) I need to be truthful to myself.

6) I need to love myself for who and what I am. I need to feel secure in myself and have self-confidence.

7) I definately need to do something to improve my memory because I had two more goals and I can't remember them!!

I wish I was more liked by my immediate family. I wish I fit in with them. I really cannot see what I am doing wrong even though it is so clear to them. Is it that I am soo incredibly stubborn that even my subconscious is stubbornly not allowing me to see what it is that they are saying??

What I have running in place for my future right now is:
1) Teaching application
2) ESL abroad
3) Going back to the day job (must discuss this with the boss) and then improving my skills e.g. via management courses

My brain is so choc-full I dont even know what was discussed or what I mean to do; but I have got some of it down at least and I can read over it tomorrow and discuss it with myself.

I wish I had more clarity of though and was more self-analytical then I could sort myself and my mish-mash of a life out!